| Hello . i am 33 years of age and started taking xanax when i was the age of 15 . Wow that is really scary now that i actually typed it. Well were do i begin? I took .5 miligrams from when i started at 15 to the age of 30. Up to this point I was taking 2 to 3 pills a day at .5 miligrams that is a total of 1.5 mg a day. Now at the age of 30 it stopped working I knew this was my body tolerance build up . I then was prescribed 1mg blue tablets in place of the .5 mg tablets and so it began. That was the worse thing that could of happened but how could i have helped it? I beleive at that point when i jumped from half a mg to a whole one, i came to a xanax fork in the road. One, I could have seeked help knowing that my xanax was not working but went down the road that most people go down and was prescribed an increase in the wonder drug. I call it that cause it makes me wonder. Wonder what the hell it is. Not sure if it is friend or foe. Anyway back to my story I was now taking 3 pills a day . 3 pills that you used to be half a mg of xanax but now they are blue and they are 1mg. So instead of taking 1.5 mg ...wow i'm now up to 3 and then if a hard day at work occurs maybe 4. and all the while my body is being taken over by the xanax and the fillers and who know 's what else is in those things. I felt like now that i was taking a higher dose, it did help me cope ,but when the short lived xanax left me, it REALLY REALLY left me. Giving me a whole lot of Anxiety between every dose. So I today beleive that i was withdrawing between each dose consequently withrawing 3 to 4 times a day. At this point I realized that i was addicted to the med. And I questioned If i really had a Anxiety problem or was it that I was highly addicted to this med? Well it took me over a year and alot of pain. But i'm down to One Half A Miligram A Day...that's .5 aday and sometimes half at a time. I am now 33 years old and I went through hell and still am ,but my panic attacks are not as bad cause the less that is in my system the less i fall when it leaves. I hope that makes sense......I am willing to sacrafice a small constant feeling of Anxiety now that i'm basically taking nothing(.5mg) a day, then taking 3 to 4 mg a day feeling sedated and numb . Wich by the way led to huge withdraws every 4 hours that it was no longer effective, were i had to take the next pill.This med made me angry alot , sad alot, aggresive alot. Was it my fault? no! cause i knew no other way . I was only a teenager when they put me on this. So now i'm tryin to learn what life is like without the xanax . The med that i have been on since 16.....I am 33 and not used to facing the world without my xanax . Everyday i try to learn and learn and learn new ways ,Med free, to face reality. Because my reality was to take a pill....Its hard, really hard but i know it will pay off. I dont want my brain fried anymore. It's time to stop this med. It is hard to think without it talk without it work without it be social without it. But one day i'll be fine..Xanax! |
Anonymous CommenterWell, your story made me cry! I'm 23 and take 1mg of xanax 4 or more times a day. I want off but, I scared!!
Anonymous CommenterWell, your story made me cry! I'm 23 and take 1mg of xanax 4 or more times a day. I want off but, I scared!!